Question needs answering…

Hey, so i know this isn’t a site like yahoo or reddit, but I really need some advice. So, my mom has been acting really transphobic lately. We’ve been having arguments, tried to talk seriously, and nothings working. The most recent problem is my hair. It’s a pixie with long bangs (as seen in picture) and my mom refused to cut it shorter when she cut it a month ago. So, yesterday i asked her if we could cut it shorter, or if she wanted me to do it. But she flipped out and said no. I really want this, and i even relapsed with cutting. (Yes, i’m going to tell my therapist) and when i told my mom, she just yelled at me and said i was stupid. I don’t know why, but my hair is the only reason i don’t pass as a guy. What should i do? there’s no possible way to style it that looks short or good. What options do i have? I guess i should just do it, but i’m afraid of what she’ll do. She most likely won’t hit me, but i’m a wuss. Also, anxiety man. Please help.

Wrong Body (How it feels)

imagine you’re trapped. Trapped in a cage with 100 locks, yet everyone around you is free, mocking you. You tell them “I don’t like it in here,and i know a way out.Can i have the key?” But they wave bibles in your face, and throw out harsh opinions. your mother, the one who is supposed to protect you, walks up and says “No, this is where you were intended to be. therefore, it’s ok.” It’s ok that you’re starving, cold, and lonely? You’re just a bit too far away to reach the key, because apparently if you unlock the cage, you’ll regret it forever. So, left alone, all you can do is die. And it doesn’t seen so bad.

How about now?

I tell you of my differences

that i am not what i seem

i wipe off all my makeup

and throw away my frilly things

cut my hair and put on a hood

oh my goodness, i feel so good.

but wait.

you don’t like it, and i’m offending you?

you say this isn’t something i should choose.

you say i’ll never be the same

and i’m taking your “precious” daughter away.

you say “i’m losing you”

“You’re not my kid anymore”

you know, when i hit a certain age

i’m walking out that door

so i put on my makeup

and throw on a gown

you know that I will never be happy

but do you love your “precious” daughter now?

Changing your world

you throw off society

and pull on yourself

you’re tired of fitting in

and paining yourself

you look in the mirror

as your new self unfurls

and you smile at how

you just changed your whole world

Excited

I am so excited you guys! I am finally going to stop trying to fit in to social norms, and I’m going to start being a boy again. I’ll start binding again, stop wearing makeup, and just be happy again. I just wanted to share my excitement with you guys. (yes i have a pimple on my chin.)

My best drawing

I’ve always been the girl who draws on everything during class, and I’ve been trying lately to keep drawing like I used to. I see a huge improvement, even if it looks kinda bad.

It was a drawing I made when I was feeling unaccepted and alone, and decided to draw how i saw myself. It looks nothing like me, but i like it.

How to make your own chest binder

If you are an FTM, a cosplayer, or you just want to flatten out, Then I can tell you how to make a chest binder. (In the top picture I am trying way 3, because I am a 34C. In the bottom i am wearing a regular bra. )

Way 1:(For smaller busts) Take an old pair of leggings, pantyhose, or spanx, and cut out the crotch. You can also cut the sleeves. Pull your head through the hole and put your arms through the leg holes.

Way 2:(For medium bust size) wear the leggings you made, and take out 2 tight camisoles. put one on backwards and roll it up in sections so that it looks like a bra. Do the same with the other one but wear it forwards.

Way 3:(For larger busts or more coverage) Wear the leggings and the camisoles but with a sports bra underneath and the leggings on top.

Cautions: Like a regular binder, do not wear for more than 8 ours, and never sleep in it. If you can’t breathe at all take it off. It should only impair breathing by a fraction.

Thanks for reading, and I hope this works for you!