Today i uploaded a youtube video reaching out to those of you who struggle with depression, anxiety, low self esteem, or eating disorders. I hope you get he chance to watch and I hope i help some of you out,Insha’Allah. Thank you and have a great day my beauties. 🙂
Category: self esteem
Yet another video :)
I have made another video. This time i talk about the elements to converting to Islam, and my battle against an eating disorder that i overcame with the help of my family and Allah. (I did cry a little but i edited most of it out.) I would really appreciate and love you guys if you’d watch my video and like, comment, subscribe. Let me know what you want to hear next. Thank you! 🙂
New Video! (My battle against myself)
Hey guys! I’m so sorry for being inactive for so long. My family was having a lot of struggles and I needed to take some time off. But I’m back 🙂 I created my first YouTube video and I hope you guys watch and enjoy it. Thank you!
Confession
hey guys. I need to say something. I may seem happy and just a morbid poem writer. But really i am a suicidal transgender teenager who just lost everything in his/her life that made them happy. the only reason i’m alive is my best friend, and i’m still on the edge. I can’t stop cutting, and i’ve been caught popping pills. I’ve been to 3 mental hospitals in a 3 year interval. I cry myself to sleep. i listen to music to get away. My dad hung up on me in the mental hospital in october and practically said his girflfriend was more important to him. I decided i need to come clean and show my scars/cuts. Some are old some are new.
Question needs answering…
Hey, so i know this isn’t a site like yahoo or reddit, but I really need some advice. So, my mom has been acting really transphobic lately. We’ve been having arguments, tried to talk seriously, and nothings working. The most recent problem is my hair. It’s a pixie with long bangs (as seen in picture) and my mom refused to cut it shorter when she cut it a month ago. So, yesterday i asked her if we could cut it shorter, or if she wanted me to do it. But she flipped out and said no. I really want this, and i even relapsed with cutting. (Yes, i’m going to tell my therapist) and when i told my mom, she just yelled at me and said i was stupid. I don’t know why, but my hair is the only reason i don’t pass as a guy. What should i do? there’s no possible way to style it that looks short or good. What options do i have? I guess i should just do it, but i’m afraid of what she’ll do. She most likely won’t hit me, but i’m a wuss. Also, anxiety man. Please help.
broken everything
broken desire, shattered attire
wear that crown of thorns
glass tears and eyes of fire
times like these are in dire
need of fixing
come and help me
broken heart
and broken everything
How about now?
I tell you of my differences
that i am not what i seem
i wipe off all my makeup
and throw away my frilly things
cut my hair and put on a hood
oh my goodness, i feel so good.
but wait.
you don’t like it, and i’m offending you?
you say this isn’t something i should choose.
you say i’ll never be the same
and i’m taking your “precious” daughter away.
you say “i’m losing you”
“You’re not my kid anymore”
you know, when i hit a certain age
i’m walking out that door
so i put on my makeup
and throw on a gown
you know that I will never be happy
but do you love your “precious” daughter now?
Changing your world
you throw off society
and pull on yourself
you’re tired of fitting in
and paining yourself
you look in the mirror
as your new self unfurls
and you smile at how
you just changed your whole world
Excited
I am so excited you guys! I am finally going to stop trying to fit in to social norms, and I’m going to start being a boy again. I’ll start binding again, stop wearing makeup, and just be happy again. I just wanted to share my excitement with you guys. (yes i have a pimple on my chin.)
Early WCW
My woman crush would definitely have to be P!NK, or Alecia Beth Moore. She is beautiful, an amazing singer, and has a sassy attitude. Who doesn’t love her style? Her music has inspired me to get through hard times, and to dance my heart out like nobody’s watching. Love ya girl!